vitriol and jargon

in theory, i am supposed to be up for my annual review sometime before the end of the month. i say 'in theory,' because erstwhile bosslady has made no effort to return my myriad communiques asking to schedule the blessed event. this has done nothing to alleviate the rift in my mind, tearing me between apathy and dread. given that i no longer have any respect for this woman, i don't really care what she says to me; on the other hand, she can fire me, and given my general history, i really need the health insurance.

i'm the last one in the office to be awaiting this questionable honor; having had the audacity to actually take my vacation days and use them, i missed the big wave two days before christmas. wherein she apparently did nothing but attack my colleagues for daring to be dissatisfied with the unbelievable mess and absurd state of affairs in which she left us. i liken it to a scene from the last meeting she attended, wherein she went after us for complaining about HR (who had been ignoring all of our questions for the better part of the month), placing the blame squarely on our shoulders, because clearly we just hadn't tried hard enough. never mind the seven emails and three phone calls we'd cooked up collectively to get our incredibly simple question answered.

anyway. the point is that at least i know she's going to tell me i'm a terrible person, a useless lump with no team spirit and no morale. but at least i respect the rest of my team, which is more than i can clearly say for her (at least if her behavior over the last year or so is anything to go by). which i feel gives me the right to simply spend my review fixing her with a dead-eyed stare, which is certain to make her uncomfortable. and it will be a useless victory. but seeing as how she's the daughter of the chairman of the board, it's not like i can actually complain, to i've got to get my rocks off somehow, really.

also, it's really, really, really, really cold today.

ADDENDUM: i have actually just received a communique from bosslady, and we have determined that my review will be conducted via telephone OVER MY LUNCHHOUR tomorrow. her reasoning is that it's too cold to bring the baby out. to which i think: "why would she bring a baby to my review, anyway? is that even allowed?" grumble grumble grumble.