wrapping up.

i handed in my resignation today. to say it was one of the single most satisfying moments of my life would be to do it no justice. to hand it to bosslady on her first trip to the office in ages, to say that i'm taking next wednesday for training, or the following friday for a trip, with no quarter? priceless. (her response: 'well, can we get an extra day, since you'll take wednesday?' mine: 'no.')

my only regret came in the meeting with scary vp that followed, in which we discovered that (to no one's surprise), bosslady would not be returning to the office, choosing instead to stay home and mother her sproglets. as such, they are going to be conducting a hard search, both within and without the company, to replace her. and that whoever they choose may not be located in this office. the subtext here is the confirmation of our fears and suspicions: they're gunning to move this department to florida, though they'd never dare say it aloud. to look around the table the moment this realization sunk in was absolutely heartbreaking. seeing my three colleagues, my smart, capable colleagues, told that this company officially doesn't care that the four of us have built this department from nothing into something really good, that we are expendable and easily redundant....was horrible. the absence of hope was suddenly made palpable, and the sense of defeat overwhelming.

i count myself so lucky that i've somehow, against all odds, managed to escape. but somehow, i feel like i'm leaving my entire platoon stranded behind enemy lines.

(because i'm a bad person, however, that does very little to mar my seething euphoria)