hiss

so...glad...weekend....

the hiss above is the sound of my brain deflating after a most curious week. and while the specter of the meeting of infinite hell (next tuesday) still looms on the horizon, i am feeling a bit more zen about it. or perhaps i'm in denial. difficult to tell. but i'm both flummoxed and strangely bolstered with an encounter i had with my boss this morning...after coming to my desk about six times to remind me to do certain things for next week, she came by a seventh time, and when she called my name i gave a very weak little response, both engrossed in another task and alarmed by what was wrong now. she comes into my cubicle, grabs a seat and says "after all these things i've been throwing at you, i wanted to tell you something nice. and that's that i have been noticing that since your review, you've really been making an effort to work on some of those things we talked about, and it's really noticeable. and i just wanted you to know that i can see it, and that it's really showing up in the quality of your work. just thought you'd like to know that."

mystifying! that never happens around here.

needless to say, for the first time this week, i was positively speechless.