well, this one's all over the place.

i'm sleepy today. and in a curious temper. which is an improvement on the foul temper i was nursing earlier this week...it's been an odd morning. it's murky outside, and somewhere between warm and cool. waking up was an odd process; i was both tired and restless, and couldn't find a comfortable way to navigate my bedfellow. i think i may have elbowed him in the face once or twice. late for work again. confused by early morning murmurings and my dreams of importing the world's fair to bowling green (best not to ask). but a nice hot shower and a nice warm boy will do much to lift a mood.

i spoke to my family last night, finally, after the month long disappearance. my family. ach. if we are renowned for anything, we are legendary for our remarkable ability to not speak to each other. sometimes it's like we don't even know each other, like we're strangers. and while this doesn't bother me most of the time, i rather like being left to my own devices. but occasionally...occasionally...it becomes particularly clear when i am indulged a long ramble about it. because when i speak about it, i am forced to organize certain facts in my head. to actually think about it.

anyway. it's hardly a tragedy. there are plenty of people with stranger and more fucked up relationships with their families than i have.

in other news, boy and i made a pilgrimage to kip's bay to see the pirates of the caribbean movie...and you know? it was a lot of fun. a really entertaining little film. and i think that this one is absolutely correct in saying that johnny depp was absolutely channeling his inner bitchy queen for this one. he was an absolute comic delight, and looked like he was having a ripping good time, as did geoffrey rush. somehow, even onscreen, the enthusiasm was absolutely infectious.

i have no engagements set for tonight. i think i will, therefore, be spending it at home with the pod, a large pile of sushi and some trashy magazines. paint my nails. do some girly maintenance, like eyebrows and face maskes and stuff. be self indulgent and have the down time i've not had in what feels like ages. ah yes, ah yes. perhaps i'll find my way out of this particular little haze of mine...