where the heart is.

and we find the week gets better and better...it's sunday, entirely too early for me to be awake, but awake i am. why, i hear you ask? well. let's just say that i woke up with a raging bout of super discomfort which heralds the return of the color orange back to a place of prominence in my life, as well as the inevitable and thoroughly dreaded visit to my doctor.

i hate my doctor.

but, i hate this marvelous affliction i've got even more.

perhaps i will take this opportunity to look for a new doctor. that would probably not be a bad idea. hm.

anyway.

since i've been awake for so very long, i've been spending some quality time on the net.

i've been searching for jobs in england.

not that there's any hope of me even being able to contemplate applying for one before my EU passport comes through, but...i don't know. i've ranted about this sort of thing before, about getting those little twinge reminders of where it is that you're really supposed to be. the place that feels right. i think i know where that is for me, even though i know the weather just does my head in. but then, every place has its drawbacks, hasn't it?

i've been thinking about this a lot lately, because of roos' return to the hood. he's so thrilled about it. i wonder if i'm going to be that thrilled about my next move within the boroughs. i'm not so sure. even thinking about moving, the only circumstance that makes my heart trill with delight is the prospect of going and finding a nice little flat in london, perhaps somewhere near the v&a and going there to be terribly domestic and kick ass.

i've decided that i'm going to do that someday, come hell or high water, but the question is, as it always is, when.

it's just so tearing...i do love new york, this massive, frenetic cluster pool of humanity and insanity. many parts of me don't want to leave it, not ever.

but then i think about moving back to the great wet, dark uk and i just get all wistful and sighing. like i am now.

and, naturally, it doesn't help that the weather outside today is perfect, perfect wet english darkness.

bliss!