dirty little secrets

1. i am fascinated with britney spears. it's sick, i know.

2. i am a very jealous girl. this is very likely why i don't have many female friends. i'm getting better, though. or maybe just luckier in who i'm encountering.

3. when faced with a pint of ben and jerry's chocolate fudge brownie, i always seek out the brownies first. why not just get brownies, i hear you ask? because that's not the point, you silly crumpet. now be silent and let me continue.

4. i have a serious penchant for junk literature. not danielle steel junk, not that far. but anything that falls under the "brit chick lit" genre, no matter how inane...i'll read it, you bet your boots.

5. i wish i were a proper geek, but i suspect i'm not smart enough.

6. my greatest fear in life (next to flying) is being dull. and i fret that i skate perilously closer to that every day.

7.i worry that i'm never going to quit smoking, because i like it too damn much.

8. some days, i really want to be mean. yelling at toddlers, glaring at little old ladies on the subway, kicking the guys who catcall me in the nuts. things like that. it always passes, but...man. some days.

9. sometimes, i really feel a desire to have something happen that will fuck my life up. like, develop a prodigious drug habit. or get mugged. or start my own money-laundering scheme. things like that. i'm not sure why this is. perhaps i'm really a repressed self-destructor. maybe this is why i date the people i do. hm.

10. i get a sick, twisted pleasure out of filing the calluses off my feet.

if this is more than any of you wanted to know...

sorry, boog.