hey ladies!

ladies, this one's for you!

does it ever just really scape your goat that so many things that are ONLY USED BY OUR GENDER are so bloody expensive?! it's not our fault that we bleed every month and would prefer not to stain everything in our path along the way. are we to be punished with heavy co-pays for pharmaceutical concoctions that prevent us from achieving motherhood before we're ready? why are these, basic necessities of civilized female life, so bloody expensive? why are they not subsidized by the federal government? we pay people to grow dirt, why not use that money to contribute to the antidote to overpopulation?

dammit!

most countries in europe fully subsidize contraception. they know that three hundred bucks a year per female for pills (or diaphragms, or whatever) ultimately costs less than paying the welfare so that an unprepared mother and her surprise child can survive. why don't we, if we're such a bloody enlightened first-world country?

but what about adoption? what about just saying not to premarital sex, i hear you cry! to which i say this: what about them? it's no longer realistic to expect women not to engage in premarital sex. i'm sorry, but it's really not. we can work like the men, we should like to fuck like the men as well. and as for adoption...well..i applaud adoption. i do. it's a wonderful institution.

but sometimes, if you know you're not going to raise it, you don't really want to go through the trouble of birthing it. particularly if you, like me, have a pathological fear of the act of birth.

it should be noted that some advancement has been made of late--most insurance companies now cover contraception (at a high co-pay), whereas they didn't before. but it's not good enough. it's just not. and there's going to be turmoil in the angst part of my brain until something is done about it.

because, frankly, i feel that being on the pill (or whatever) is a public fucking service. by making my womb inhospitable to a fetus, i am keeping one more unwanted child out of the world, out of the welfare system, out of jail, and out of my life. which frankly will do just fine without a larva to call my own, thanks.

and on that note...i draw this rant to a close.

i just had to get out some serious aggression before returning to...snivel...work.

oh, and just as an aside...for everyone who has sent me little messages of support in my rantings over the last few days...thank you. they've been making today much easier to deal with. you know who you are.