must be funny

at this particular moment in time, i am copying all of my files off of my hard drive on to our server. i've railed against taking this step for ages, because i don't trust our metaframe system any further than i can throw it. but, i came in this morning to discover that i could not access my c drive whilst in the metaframe. and all the databases i currently need to get anything done at all are ONLY accessible through the metaframe. and never the twain shall meet.

isn't technology fun?

anyway.

i've been having a lot of headaches recently about money. weirdly, it's almost a relief to have something so definite to fret about, even if it is something i'd much prefer to have clear and easy and sorted. anyway. this is something i've groused about a lot, i know. but that doesn't mean it ever goes away.

new york city is expensive. as in , you-may-one-day-need-to-sacrifice-a-kidney-in-order-to-pay-your-rent expensive. as such, money runs away very, very fast, even when you're doing nothing more extravagant than living. and i'm feeling this hard right now. and it's freaking me out. it's keeping me awake nights. it's making my hair fall out. seriously. the strands i've been leaving in my wake go far beyond simple summer moulting.

and it doesn't help that all of my friends are in computers, and as such making significantly more than i do. having conversations that include phrases like "every month, i'm going to have x amount of money to play with after bills, rent, and going out" gets painful. or discussions of travel when i know for a fact that i'm going to have to sell an organ on the black market in order to ever leave this country ever again.

listening to that sort of talk when you're not sure if you're going to get all your bills paid is not very uplifting.

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it's bothersome.

i'm basically coming to terms with the fact that i really need a second job. i'm poking my nose around the prospect of picking up a saturday shift at the local coffee haven...though i have no idea if that's going to work out. i really hope it does, though. i need to inquire about the status of that, actually.

so, yeah. on that front, please keep your fingers crossed for me.

and on another front, keep your fingers crossed for newroommate, who's got a job interview today.

bleah.

note to self: i've got to find an amp and find out if the pickup in my guitar is in good nick. soon.

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