another pigeon flies the coop, and my wing is still stuck underneath my computer.

here's a thought for the day:

let's not throw hope out the window before it's walked out the door.

having said that, young mister longacre is leaving the company, and i've heard nothing with regards to the interview i had last week.

i am happy for him, though disheartened at the same time. partially disheartened because i can't imagine who's going to replace him, who could ever fill the void in my cubicle as he does. plus, we've got someone new in already...can we handle having another? what's going to happen to our dynamic? i know that my boss is terrified of our new (giant, russian) programmer, and it's my promise to her that i will make sure he doesn't make any sudden movements. and that's going to be strange. so, having another variable pop out of place is going to be...hard. what will i do without my comic relief, my political pundit, my verbal sparring partner? i swear, if we end up with someone boring, i'm taking over one of the operations people's offices.

and, of course, there's the other, petty hand.

what if i don't get another job? what if i'm stuck here for another year? or two? or ten? for god's sake, we've already had so much turnover in this department...other than my boss, once young mister longacre leaves, i'll have the greatest seniority in the department. what if that's as good as it gets? what if i'm the last one standing?

what will i do then?

because a pay raise sure as hell isn't in the cards, nor is an escape from the shackles of web content, which i loathe more and more each day.

can't WAIT to get out of web content. can't bloody wait.

oh, and just as an aside: i'm sure there are many out there who would say "hey, stupid, at least you've got a job. so shut up and deal." to which i say: just because i've got a job doesn't mean i'm not allowed to hate it.

which, in a very roudnabout way, brings us back to the mantra. wait until hope has flown the coop before you chuck it out the casement.

i'm going to. i'm going to try very hard.

i make no guarantees, however.