other people's roommates: an explanation

a little explication...the "other person's roommate" is the roommate of one of the boys in the band, freshly back from germany and teaching 7th and 8th grade history in brooklyn.

and oh man, i'm in trouble, because i like him.

a lot.

and not in that semi-indifferent "oh, let's wait and see what happens, if it works out, that's just great but whatever" way, or in that "ooh, my feet feel like they are on fire and my stomach is full of butterflies and i can't speak" kind of way...more in that "i'm going to figure this out and make it work if it kills me" way.

this is odd. it's been ages since i got this particular brand of bee in my bonnet. sure, there have been many crushes, many ill-fated trysts and all that (as you probably know)...but a certifiable...thing. this is new. well, not new, exactly, but a long bloody time in coming. we were chatty. we talked travel and politics and books and drank wine and smoked many, many many cigarettes. i think he is smart and handsome, and just awkward enough to fulfill my geek requirements. suddenly it was 11:30 and we were both terribly confused

he held my hand. and there was nothing weird about it at all.

and then we got stuck in traffic on the queensboro bridge. only in new york will you find a traffic jam after midnight.

and yet there remains the nagging thing in the back of my head that's saying he's my friend's roommate. how is my friend going to feel about the whole situation? it's practically dormcest. except that they live in queens and i live in brooklyn and that's really not the point, though...i guess it's just, well, i never like being an observer when friends-who-date break up. it's messy, and it's strange. i personally prefer to have no part of it, generally. dating inside an established tribe is something i frown upon.

but then again, he's not really part of the established tribe, is he? i mean, he did just recently arrive from germany. he's not just new, he's imported!

food for thought.

ay, dios mio. here's hoping this gets interesting.