worried

i confess that i'm moderately worried about one of the members of the clan at this time. this person has been exhibiting some really class a "what the fuck" behavior. we're talking foot in mouth, we're talking inappropriate actions. we're talking...well, we're talking about fifty shades of behavior i've never seen this person exhibit before. granted, it is the tail end of the holiday season and the dead of winter, never a time when any of us is at our pepsodent best. but...it is a strange thing to watch. because i know that this person's year (2002, that is) was about as crap as mine, i understand very much where this is all coming from. i can see the root. BUT, the fact remains that the rest of us are only going to be able to look the other way for so long, you know? there's only so many times i'm going to be able to take certain statements with a saucy smile and a ruffle of the hair, before i fucking break down and get either angry or hurt on this person's ass.

sometimes words, idle statements, even when understood...they are damaging.

something's going to have to give, i think, or else every night is going to be like wednesday night, much to the chagrin of everyone.

except maybe without the pancakes.

and YOU, you of whom i speak, if you're reading this, keep this in mind: i love you. i do. you are an integral, vital and important part of my life. okay? this is not an attack. it's just that, running over the events of the last couple of weeks...what is going on with you? i am worried.

and for the record, despite my smile and the fact that i sympathize, i was very, very hurt by what you said about your future attendance to my shows in relation to the guest list. understandable that you feel that way, but you really didn't have to say it to my face. or at all.

just thought you should know.

and if you do read this, you are going to kick my ass, aren't you?