that girl

i don't think about it much, except always
so i'm trying to stop thinking at all
i turn inside out over things that you say,
over things you never tell me at all

and i shake my head at my own actions
i wish that i could understand
why i'm sitting through this when i know how it ends
why i'm choosing a seat in the palm of your hand

tell me how, because i never thought that i would be that girl
what's happened now, why do you get to be this focus of my world
you wear me out, you spin me round
though i know damn well i'm too good to be your girl

i try to read you like a letter
i know some of what you're feeling so well
what i don't know is why i bother at all
when i just end up going through hell

why i back the corner up with excuses
as i'm driving myself up the wall
i can't figure out what you're doing to me
why i care so much, why i care at all

tell me how, because i never thought that i would be that girl
what's happened now, why do you get to be this focus of my world
you wear me out, you spin me round
though i know damn well i'm too good to be your girl

and i try, and i tried
and you'd think i'd be past all this by now
and i lie, and i lied
i just wish that i would have figured out
that wanting things won't make them come around
that some things are just too lost to be found

tell me how, because i never thought that i would be that girl
what's happened now, why do you get to be this focus of my world
you wear me out, you spin me round
though i know damn well i'm too good to be your girl.